Losing My Blog Virginity

I have been feeling very talkative, thoughtful, and creative lately. I figured it'd be fun and interesting to start my own blog- a place for me to vent, talk to whoever wants to read, and just open up my mind a little. I'm also considering this somewhat of a journal, just to write about my every day life and experiences.

I'm just sitting on my couch writing this, tuning in and out of Family Guy and thinking about today. Today was sort of bittersweet for me. The man I'm in love with completed his first swearing in process. I am so proud of him. And Lord knows he will be the sexiest soldier EVER. ;) BUT, I am not really a fan of the hardships the military life can bring to people like me. I don't want to be away from my fiance ever (this means for his boot camp, schooling, and anything else that will arise). I also don't want to be told when and where we can move. I don't even want to move. I love right here where I'm at, close to my family and friends. I am dreading August 24th. That is the day the man I love and lay in the protection of every night will be gone for 9 weeks. It doesn't sound that long, but for someone who can barely go a day without her love, it's pretty intense. I really honestly don't think I'm strong enough to perfectly fulfill the duty of an Army wife. I am scared, nervous, excited, sad, unhappy, and mad, all at the same time. But I guess we will find out soon what this is all about. I never saw this happening.

The previous thoughts have been clouding my mind all day today, and I think they're gonna last a while. But I'm ready to get them outta my head and forget about them for a while. The thoughts stress me out and make me feel too anxious. But now, I think I am ready to rest my mind, body, and soul. They all need a little beauty sleep. So now it's time to put the computer down and fall asleep to my nightly viewing of Cheaters on DVR. Good night to all.